I Want to Love You, I Want to Ruin You
(Les malheurs de la vertu), 2025
Collaborating with Femmexy
Debut at Mescolanza, Metamorphika Studio(20th March, 2025)
Reperformed at Toast to the Void, The Plant Room(5th June, 2025)
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To be continued
“What the performance is about?
Our performance is a response to today’s sex culture. As a trans woman of color, I've had to consistently fight against sexualization since day one of my dating life. At first, I thought I just need to recognize chasers, but soon I realized that even the nuanced way I present myself to the world as a queer artist, my expressions I see as political statements, has been sexualized too.
You can easily see a red flag when someone flirts with you just because you look young/cool/rich/healthy, or for your gender or ethnicity. But what makes it even more paradoxical is that the more desperately you want to be seen as a genuine person, to expose your vulnerability and nuanced emotions, the more people either think you're psycho or sexualize your trauma and project their desires on you.
This performance is a reverse reproduction of that. We chose sexting as the material and the method of tattoo transferring as the approach to over-sexualize my body. By shedding my body into a public screen for projections of desire, we reveal how the curse of individualism works in sex culture.
Like a lot of curses that relies on self-fulfilling prophecies and collective consciousness to come into effects, a sexting that looks just kinda hot also contains potentially destructive power with social media and algorithms in today’s cybernetic society. The sexual capitals that we might take pride in, engrave into our body and bind us to commodities.
We define our performance as a failed transgressive resistance. We wanted it to look cool, because art whores like us deserve more attention. But we're well aware that it can't shake the fundamental logic of sexualization. If there is anything that really matters, we do cherish and guard our primal aversion to being defined or objectified... ”